FIGURED OUT.

So I just had this long ass talk with my parents about school and my life and how I just really need to get my act togther and it's the first time in awhile that i've really just listened to them and everything makes sense. I know it sounds hella corny and not really "genevieve like" but i'm willing to do it because I don't want to get left behind.

From now on i've decided that school is honestly and truely the thing I need to focus on right now and everything else comes after because these past couple of weeks i've learned that if I really study for something I do good and if I really do my work I do awesome. So instead of forming the fool I genevieve, am now getting on top of my shit.

I promised myself by monday, I will go to all my classes, be on top of my school work, no more skipping, eat right feel right, no cussing, and hotairballonmylife. No more outside influence because what they do doesn't affect me. So now I am gonna go to church, go have a superfox meeting, and go finish all my homework. Because I'm starting out fresh and i'm excited. LET'S GO!

FRUSTRATED.

Life is good but it's not great. I kick it with friends but it's just alright. My family is just there but there isnt much love. I just don't feel complete anymore. School is slowly dwindling down, I honestly just don't care anymore. I know I know "junior year" but I'm hella over it, my lack of care just helps me not function as well and half ass everything in my life. I'm sitting here bored and confused wondering if I should kick myself in the ass and get my act togther or if I'm just gonna sit here and watch TV.

My friends are just there I kick it with everyone equally now and I'm getting close to Jel, Danielle, and Jodi again. But it's all just ok I mean there are some things that I would like to change but I've grown not to care not to bother with it becuase it seems like everytime I tell someone that this bothers me or I dont like it when you do this to me, they just brush it off as if I'm kidding or they come back with something I've done wrong to them. HAH So I just say fuck it, fuck it all. This week I want to start fresh. Fresh with not caring what others think, going to school to learn, coming home after school and doing what needs to be done, get off the smoking, no more cussing, and if people wanna talk shit it won't phase me.

This blog might sound a little confusing but it's whatever I'm not here to have anyone try and understand my life I'm just here to let it all our and breathe.

SCHOOL IS A BIAAAAATCH.

going back to school i realized i saw everyone i wanted to see over the summer. school was no more big deal. junior year though ahhh, this year im working my ass off. if i don't get anything out of high school except for that i get accepted to stanford ill be happy. but i've been trying to keep in touch with my counsler just so he knows how much i want to go there and how much it means to me. he's pretty cool and honest i love it. now i've realized i go to school to learn and friends and activities come after.

i miss miss miss cassie, things are so different without her but i'm keeping my head up and hopefully i'll see her real soon. on another note TIARA'S COTILLION! wooo hooo im excited and danity kane free concert and and and float building starts next week busy me. but on top of all that i need to remeber that my education is my main priority and i need to get my shit on track. well that's about it im doing good i love my family, i love life, i'm genuinely happy.

OUT.

so steffi and i were on the phone talking hah while i was still light weight loaded hah anyways here it goes our list of things we need to stick to for junior year.

1. stay on my hype (do you and ill do me)
2. never give up no matter how hard anything seems, stick to it because the reward no matter how small is still sweet.
3. make enough time for my family
4. go to church every sunday (god is good all the time, thank him for it)
5. keep the superfoxes alive, keep everyone up to date equally
6. your education is in your hands, feed of the power. get your shit on track and on time
7. loose weight forreal
8.hotairballoonMYlife

summer is coming to an end and though im behind on my homework and i love sleeping in, no homework, and chillin with friends. im glad to get my education on track its gonna be a new start and im excited for it. this week was pretty fun besides the fact that i hella procrastinated. i had fun chilled with tiara a lot i love her shes awesome and seriously down for anything haha val's piercing, teaching her how to ride a bike with boy meets world niq, eating thai food with lu and angelo. yeahhh `06 class is cool. but yeah i should get back to my homewrok....OUT.

HELL YEAH I GOT THIS FROM DANIELLE.

**Type a message to 10 different nameless people**

1. Haha you two, without you too I really don't know what I would do. Through it all you have been there, "the rut" as one of you guys likes to call it. My down ass bicthes till the end. No ones on our level cuz they can't climb that high. You two are by far closer then friends we're sisters and we've pretty much done it all, I love you guys and you make life worthwhile.

2. I did all my firsts with you my first time taking pictures at photo galleria, first time seeing a pg13 movie, first time drinking, and my first best friend. At this moment I really do miss you and I know we've had our shit but I've learned to trust you again and I know that you always have my back in any situation. My number one fan at any dance production show, the loudest voice yelling "GO GENEVIEVE, GO SUPERFOX!" all through the show even in the dances I'm not in. I love how you learn from your mistkes and admit when your wrong it takes a true women to admit their wrongs.Yeah you're great, you've really been what I consider a true friend.

3. We argue 24/7 but when you're not around im always singing of your praises. You're extremely intelligent and always got your shit together even if its last minute, hah. I know I may bag on you about all the dumb shit you do and get mad at you for petty ass things, but I really do look up to you. You got your shit together and you make me proud. I love you and I miss you come back from IRAN already!

4. This bitch has no life. She STAYSSS on myspace. Haha I don't know, I know I make fun of you're ass all the time but honestly its just cuz its fun. If I really had to go deep on this one I would say that you're one of the most down to earth people I know and I love how you're so fucking real and don't take shit from anyone. Yep. You're beautiful inside and out and I know you get it from you fine ass disney loving mom. I know we will continue to stay friends till infinity and thats what I love about you. I can always depend on you, I love our deep talks, shopping days, and chillin with my family. YOU'RE FUCKING AWESOME, like omg hotairballoonyourlife!

5. YOU'RE CRAZY. haha simple as that, fucking hella hardcore and shit sneeking out taking out your mom's FRIEND'S car?! haha #5 you're cool. I'm glad we're hella close now. You some carmel sexiness and I love how you're comfortable in your own skin and how you live life so free and happy.

6. I love you with all my heart and I gotchu in any situation. But honestly you have changed and you haven't told me anything I find out from other people and I really don't like that especially when I make an effort to tell you what is going on in my life. I know we still chill and have our good times but I really really wanna stay close with you and that won't happen if you dont tell me whats up. Feelme? I dont know if you're scared or not but just know I'll love you no matter what. There is always going to be consequences for your actions, remeber that.

7. Damnnnnnn homegirl can sing and break it down on her stomach dancing. You got the best advice in the world! You're spunky but classy hah. I hope the big city is going well for you, but comeback already! I miss you. I'm going to really make an effort to stay in touch with your ass cuz I don't know what I would do without you. STAYSEXY.

8. These too I miss dearly. I feel really bad how I don't keep in touch with either of you. I know you all have both been going through your shit one with boyfriend problems and one with their daddy. But I honestly do miss your personalities and our fun ass times.By the end of the summer I'm gonna try and kickit with you guys and but January when I get my car we'll be crusin! STAYINTOUCH bitches I miss you.

9. Yeah you make fun of me a lot but somehow I'm down with it. The only person in the world that is not family that I will share drinks with weird huh? I don't even know how we got hella close but I'm glad we did. My downass guy friend. I can talk to you about anything in the entire world and you wont be grossed out or go crazy. I've had some of my funnest times with you, hah chillin in your room doing homework eating hell food, somehow just makes me hotairballooned of life. I'm glad we're friends =).

10. I never thought you getting a girlfriend would change things but obviously it did. I miss you the most. We used to talk for hours and hours about everything you can imagine and we would never get bored.Haha I loved hearing your girl problems and you your famous line "girls play too many games" when it was always "boys play too many games." Hah yeahhh I miss ya. Everyone always asks where did you get this hotairballoonyourlife thing from and I never wanted to say because it reminds me too much of all our bombass times. But yup, this homeboy right here helped me make up that catchy ass moto and I've stuck by it ever since. Thanks for hotairballooingmylife foreverr and I hope things get better this year since everything will be easier since we'll both be driving.